12 Grateful Sobriety Moments

Only 12 ! How will I keep it to so few. This list grows daily but if I have to pick my first, favourite and best, these are the ones I never forget.

I am now completely present from the moment I wake up, till the moment I go to bed, even on the days I feel like crap, I am numb to nothing.

I get to be fully involved in my children's lives and live their moments with them, no matter how small, it's one that brings immense joy and happiness and they get my full attention.

I am able to deal with all emotions no matter how big or scary those feelings are, I am here for it all and sometimes it may take a while, but I will work through it. If its still bothering me in 24 hours, I will make sure I've started a process to sort it out within 48 hours. Nothing lingers anymore.

I am grateful sobriety has given me the humility to be who I am and what I want to be without judgment and I know at any time, it is okay now to ask for help when I am struggling instead of hiding from the world and pretending I am strong all the time.

I am in awe daily of the small things that don't miss my eye anymore. The sunshine bouncing off the waves, a child's beautiful laughter. The coffee I get every morning in bed that my husband makes or the smile of a stranger that walks past and then I get to smile back, if I didn't smile at them first already. The small things are my favourite because I get to look for them and see them everyday.

I am grateful for the freedom I feel, I am no longer trapped in something that I had no idea what to call. It has a name now and I know who the enemy is. This freedom has allowed me to pick up old good habits, start new hobbies and activities and it has allowed me to actually have goals and to get to them.

I am so in love with the clarity that comes with sober. It makes its possible to solve issues and problems without that clouded judgement that was so prevalent in my daily life before. Making decisions and knowing they are the right ones . It feels wonderful to not constantly procrastinate because I am confused.

I am comfortable when I go out and am in crowds, to actually be there and remember where I am and what I am doing and to have no shame anymore when I say I want to go home, because I know the next morning, I will be waking up sober, alert, ready to conquer the day with two boys who depend on me for guidance and direction.

I am free of anxiety. I used to take pills for that, now I know the anxiety was caused by the alcohol and I am free as a bird, no alcohol, no pills. Just life on life terms, as its meant to be.

I am aware I cannot control things around me and I dont want to anymore. I am at peace for the first time in a long time in my heart and my head and I will do what it takes to protect that peace. It's a wonderful feeling.

I am so very grateful for the people that are in my life and the ones that have walked so very closely with me on this journey. I have found friendships in places I never would have dreamed. Some days, they were the difference between me getting up and out of bed when all I felt like doing was quitting. They motivated and loved me when I didn't feel I was worth anything. I will never forget this love and that I was and am loved.

I am most grateful for the direction sobriety has taken my life in. It has given me back my confidence, my self worth and reminded me of who I am and what I can do and that I am a part of something much bigger than just me. It's showed me that I have a voice and one that I can use, loudly and proudly to help others that struggle.

I love what sober has given me.